J........y

I have a *really* complex medical trauma history; both physical and mental health. I didn't really start smoking until about 15 years ago, but it was far more common to 'get what you get; maybe good, maybe ditch.' I'm also limited budget bound so my options more than 'trying' a lot of things that my friend/grower was offering, were really difficult. Part of my medical is my memory; it just SUCKS (for some things xD). I also (as does my medical team that knows & listens to me) refer to myself as "the opposites girl". Thanks to genetics and my body in general, I reject *most normal* medications. I've been referred to as "drug-seeking" because I REFUSED the ambulance provided Narcan, with my own medical history & needs, knowing I could not get relief until Dilaudid was offered. I.just.don't.like.pharma. ALl that disclosure to say; THIS is a strain I'll remember. I party mix it with a CBD heavy (if painful) or memory loss (if I want relaxed focus) and I'm finding I'm able to push THROUGH much of MH & and be able to focus. As someone who's taken that for granted and also knows intimatley what it's like to NOT be able to; it's awesome. Thankful for a release to my inner Bruce Banner.